This is the biggest roller coaster i have ever been on.
Courtney.
I’m still waking up every morning hoping to see you at my door step begging for forgiveness.
Remember those things i said…i still mean them.
i dont even know where to begin. its been a week going on two. things arent making a whole lot of sence right now, but i still have hope and faith that things will work out. i tried shutting him out, i tried everything i thought would speed up time but i learned to just give it a rest. things are hard right now for the both of us, i think hes confused and overwhelmed right now so its probably for the best right now. im just giving him space, not answering his calls for a couple more weeks right away and then we will see where its at. this is one of the hardest things i have yet to expirience in life but maybe i needed it, and maybe he does to. if he loves me like he says he does,and wants everything he has been telling me through out our relationship, then it will work out, and it wont take him long to figure it out. Im just going to sit by, keep my self busy and see where this unfolds. Time is everything.
I remember the way you made love to me
Like I was all you’d ever need
Did you change your mind
Well I didn’t change mine
Now here I am trying to make sense of it all
We were best friends now we don’t even talk
You broke my heart
Ripped my world apart
Didn’t you know how much I loved you
Didn’t you know how much I loved you, baby
I gave you everything, every part of me
Didn’t you feel it when I touched you
Didn’t I rock you when I loved you, baby
Baby, tell me
Didn’t you know how much I loved you
I can’t get you out of my head
I still feel you in this bed
Left me all alone
You couldn’t be more gone
From falling apart to fighting mad
From wanting you back to not giving a damn
I’ve felt it all
I’ve been to the wall
Didn’t you know how much I loved you
Didn’t you know how much I loved you, baby
I gave you everything, every part of me
Didn’t you feel it when I touched you
Didn’t I rock you when I loved you, baby
Baby, tell me
Didn’t you know how much I loved you
One day justice will come and find you
And I’ll be right there in your memory to remind you
Didn’t you know how much I loved you
Didn’t you know how much I loved you, baby
I gave you everything, every part of me
Didn’t you feel it when I touched you
Didn’t I rock you when I loved you, baby
Baby, tell me
Didn’t you know how much I loved you
Didn’t you know how much I loved you, baby
I gave you everything, every part of me
Didn’t you feel it when I touched you
Didn’t I rock you when I loved you, baby
Baby, tell me
I gave you everything, every part of me
its weird how you hear almost the perfect song that fits your life at the right time.
I never thought this would hurt as bad as it does. I understand his reasoning, and i respect him but it doesnt mean i wanted or needed to go through it. It hurts worse feeling you were just forced into something you didnt want to feel or do. Im not the one that needs to expirience, ive thought about it before but i know i just cant do it and hes it, but apparently he needs something so he can prove im the only one for him. im not sure what hurts worse, not being able to call him mine and have him there to fall back on when i need it most and loosing my best friend, or knowing someother girl might get the chance to have what i have…I cant do this, i feel so weak and alone i just dont know what else to do but shut down…Im shattered, and i cant do this.
“ At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we’ve chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day - those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.
Grey’s Anatomy (via littlemiss) (via seechelci)
livin day by day.
This rollercoaster ride is killing me.
hopefully we will get off of it soon.
Yeah your right i made a mistake.
and yeah im not perfect.
but atleast i can admit and understand the mistakes ive made.
Its time to grow up and relize what your doing, otherwise i dont know what else to tell you love.
